Duh poker at it's best

Not much happening poker-wise this past week, or maybe I should rephrase that, not much WINNING going on. This of course is much less excited to write about than winning.
Last weekend I attempted the Sunday NL tourney with my baby-boomer+ friends at the Orleans and I can honestly admit that I have played the worst poker ever. What happened, was, playing so much online baby tournaments ($1 and $2) on Fulltilt, has taught me way too much. Now I know a lot of things, and I applied it all last weekend. Unfortunately all the right things at the wrong time and vice versa and managed to confuse myself to the point where I didn’t know whether I was coming or going.
Apparently I was going, because the friendly Asian with A-rag took all my chips. And I had such high hopes for K10c at that stage. Oh well. At least I managed to outlast 20 players, and only 70 out of the starting 90 were left when I left with my tail between my legs.
Biggest accomplishment this week is my 5th place out of 180 in a $2 Fulltilt tourney, but not without incident. For the most part of the last half of the very long tourney, I was chip leader - which of course resulted in total stage fright when we hit the final table. I didn’t want to lose my chips and I didn’t want to lose my chip lead and everyone and his uncle took advantage of it. They should have just let my distribute my chips without playing, and let me save face.
I have so much to learn when it comes to tournament strategy. At this point the only thing I (think) I have down is maximizing the profit of my winning hands.
Last night I played at Sahara, and thank goodness, there was a glimmer of hope. I made it to about 30 players left out of 10 starting tables, without making any major mistakes, but also without doing anything useful purely out of fear I think.
Tonight I’m going to try again. I’m not giving up. I love this game.